She should have realized that…

Hello again, everyone! I was going to post something COMPLETELY different today, but after a little bout of writer’s block, I decided to go with something a little more simple and laid back, just to get some more content out to you guys!

First of all, I would like to say THANK YOU to each and every one of you who has reached out to me, who has clicked on my blog, and who has read my story thus far. Your words of support and encouragement mean the absolute WORLD to me, and YOU are one of the reasons WHY I am sitting in front of my computer writing today. I could not do this without the outpouring of love and support that I have been shown over the past week. I definitely did not realize that I had so many people in my corner rooting for me in taking this new, big step into the next chapter of my life.

As stated previously, today’s post is going to be super simple. I’m just going to write about what’s been going on over the past week or so. So without further ado… Enjoy!

Last Monday, President’s Day, is when I decided to start my blog. My roommate and I went to Angie’s Subs for lunch. She has a “bucket list,” of Florida restaurants that I need to experience, and I can definitely say that Angie’s Subs was a GREAT spot with a very psychedelic/beachy vibe to it. It reminded me a lot of being in Boone, but in a beach environment instead of the mountains. Anyways, she noticed that I was on my phone a lot (as I was setting up my blog), and she asked who I was talking to. I told her that Tyler and I had broken up, and I had previously told her that I was resigning my teaching position after May, but I then updated her on what my “more official,” plans were as we were sitting outside eating our lunches. Side note: I really enjoy the fact that I can talk to her about anything, and she always knows what to say, even if it’s a harsh truth that I need to come to terms with. It would also be so easy for her to judge me and say, “I don’t see what your problem with teaching is!” because she has not had as many of the issues that I have had this year, but I appreciate the fact that she is NOT like that at all, and I can say that I am very pleasantly surprised! I have actually been nervous and anxious to talk to her at times about what’s going on in my world, but at this point, I realize that she is someone that I can trust and talk to openly and bounce ideas off of. Back to the story: So I told her about starting a blog and going back to school, and she said that my personal happiness is what I need to be focused on, which definitely gave me a little more reassurance that I am on the right track with proceeding towards my goals and dreams for the future. As we finished up with lunch, she suggested that we go to the beach, even though it was cooling off a little bit outside. I agreed, so we drove about 10 minutes down the road, parked, and strolled along the beach, taking care to avoid the plentiful jellyfish that were washed up on the low-tide beach.

I can’t even remember what all we talked about as we were walking, but as I was messing with my blog on my phone, she stopped me and she said something that I’ll never forget. She prefaced it with something like, “This is going to sound like the meanest thing ever…” but truly, what she said was not mean at all. She suggested that I put my phone away for a bit, focus on my surroundings and take in the moment, because the moment that we were having as friends walking and talking on the beach, I could never get back. And she was exactly right. I do realize that we will probably walk and talk on the beach more often before May comes around; however, her suggestion really woke me up and snapped me out of the stress of the outside world, as demanding and stressful as it can be sometimes, especially with me now juggling TWO responsibilities instead of one. Her suggestion also allowed me to just be myself, and chat about whatever was on my mind, and it definitely helped me clear my head… all with the beautiful scenery and sounds of the beach around us. We then made our way back to the car, drove home, decided to eat dinner at Ruby Tuesday (as I tried not to cry at the table – I started feeling down because of the break-up with Tyler), watched the Bachelor, drank wine, and went to sleep. Last Monday truly was a great day.

The rest of last week was pretty uneventful; however, on Thursday, we went out to dinner at Chili’s. Friday, she texted me during the day about National Margarita Day, and she took me to Cantina Laredo to eat (another one of her “bucket list” places), and we both drank a margarita, came home, and went straight to bed.

Yesterday, I went to visit my friend in Orange Park so that we could work on our blogs together. We were both pretty unproductive, but then she, her husband, her daughter, and myself went to the park to play. Her daughter’s new name for me is “Christmas,” (because she can’t say Kristin), and we swung on the swings and went down the slides to her heart’s content. She’s just such a happy child, and it absolutely makes my day when I see her and she smiles and wants to play with me. Makes my worries and concerns melt right away. We then went to Jeremiah’s for some ice cream (never been there either, but YUM), and then I headed back to my apartment.

I guess there are two things that I’ve learned from last week. One: I truly did not realize that I had such an amazing support system in my corner, and throughout last week, I was getting congratulations and compliments about my first blog post/starting out on this new chapter of my life, from people who I’ve only know for 6 months. I guess I didn’t realize how much people I’ve known for such a short period of time could care about me so much already… and I am so grateful for those exact same people who have helped me and given me words of advice and strength over the past 6 months. You guys are so amazing, and I thank you for your support!

The second thing I’ve realized is that real adult life is a lot less glamorous than I thought it would be, and that’s totally okay. Adult life is getting out of bed, going to work, doing the best you can, driving home, putting on your PJs, going to bed, and doing it all over again the next day. I don’t know why, but for some reason, I just felt like “adults” do more than that on a daily basis, but the reality is, we are all just SO EXHAUSTED all the time, that doing more than what we have to do on a daily and weekly basis is almost a chore in and of itself! So, with that being said, I’m embracing adulthood in all of its glory, as I step into this next chapter of my life. I realize that self-care is essential, but it definitely doesn’t hurt to have friends in your corner to help get you up, get you out, and get you moving towards your goals and aspirations… and I can definitely say that I am on the right road, with some pretty awesome people by my side!

Ciao for now!

Kristin