A few steps forward, one step back…

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Hi again, everyone! I apologize for the late post this week. The end of last week was emotionally tumultuous for me, and I honestly had to take a step back to do what was best for me, so that I could truly tap in to my mind, body, heart, and soul. …But, the best part of all this is that I AM BACK NOW(!) and I hope to be “back on track” from here on out! I’m just doing a brief weekend update for today, but if you’re visiting and reading with me today, I hope you enjoy!

I decided to go back home (to North Carolina) last Thursday afternoon for the first time since Christmas. I can’t TELL YOU how amazing it was to see my family again, and it felt so amazing to just be able to BREATHE and just BE ME, uninhibitedly. In the past, I’ve taken school work back to NC with me, but this time, I didn’t take ANYTHING with me from school. No grades. No plans. No nothing. It felt amazing to just break away from it all and just forget about my work life for a while. I realize that I keep repeating the word “amazing,” but this past weekend was truly what I needed to propel myself forward into the next step in my life. My mind is much more clear now, I can breathe more easily, and my heart is in such a positive place. I realize now that whatever may be thrown my way moving forward, I am READY and 110% capable of tackling it all!

Now, let’s get to the actual adventures of my weekend! On Friday, I woke up early, but I then came downstairs and crashed on the couch until noon. My grandma (whom I’ll refer to in the future as “Gran”) and I went to the grocery store to get a few things (SO MUCH FUN, I know! Heehee!), and we then went to Red Lobster for Lobsterfest. Let me just tell you… driving on Highway 74 all the way to Gastonia with Gran is QUITE a ride! …I’m not normally one to take pictures of my food, but I will post one under this paragraph, because OH MY GOD. SO MUCH FOOD, and it was ALL. SO. GOOD. Honestly, it was the best meal I’ve had in a very long time. If there was a take-away message for me on Saturday, it would definitely be that I valued/appreciated just “being,” in the presence of my family, and and it was so nice to soak up all the love.

Saturday was a much more lazy day. I slept until 1 p.m. on Saturday, but my mom came into town, so I got out of bed to pal around with her for a bit. The laziness of the day quickly became consumed by doing TONS of laundry that I’d been neglecting since a few weeks ago. All I have to say is, thank GOD for moms that help you fold! Mom and I were going to go to the range later on Saturday to practice shooting for a bit, because she is taking a concealed carry class this weekend, but we waited until a little too late in the day, so we decided to head to dinner shortly after.  We went to one of our favorite Shelby spots ever, Joe’s Place, to get some Tiger Chicken Nachos and Bangkok Chicken. I WOULD’VE taken a picture of this meal, but I was so hungry that I literally started chowing down the moment our food came out! Mom and I had a really deep conversation at dinner that was definitely tough for me to have, but I think it was necessary to vocalize the things that were on my mind to her (and later my family), and it felt really good to have everything out there, and to feel completely loved and supported, regardless of the fact that I don’t have everything 100% figured out yet. When mom and I got home, I had a similar conversation with my grandfather (who I’ll refer to in the future as “Paw”), which again, was pretty difficult for me, but I definitely was given some good advice on a few of the next steps that are necessary for me to continue my journey. Finally, on Saturday night before bed, I was consumed with applying and looking for new jobs online.

Oh, and can I just mention that I got some PET THERAPY this weekend?! Gran and Paw have such a PRECIOUS little chihuahua, who is so full of life and energy, but is also extremely loving, and she cuddled up next to me every chance she got last weekend. I was in absolute HEAVEN!

…And that brings us to Sunday. Ah, the day for the 6.5 hour drive back to Florida! On Sunday, I woke up at about 10:30, packed my things, finished my last load of laundry (thanks again, mom!), packed my car, and headed down the road at about 12:30.

I definitely had such a relaxing weekend with my family, and I feel that having the conversations that I had, even though they weren’t the easiest, was absolutely necessary for me to begin processing my next move(s) on this journey. I suppose we all have to take a step back every once in a while to tap in to some self-care, especially when it comes to our emotional and mental well-being/peace of mind.

If you’ve stuck around for the entirety of this post, I want to take the opportunity to thank you so much for visiting me today, and I appreciate (in advance) your understanding of the fact that we all need a hiatus from the world once in a while.

Until next time… Ciao for now!


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